I've first started this blog because I felt like I could have something to say. Something positive. Something different than all the things we see and read online.
I felt like kids and teens need someone to tell them it's gonna be okay. Someone to tell them they're not the only ones. Someone to tell them that it's okay,that everybody makes mistakes and that it will get better.
There's a lot of hate online. A lot of bullying and a lot of people who tend to forget that there's someone real on the other side of the screen. Someone with a life, a story, a past, feelings, problems, worries, doubts and insecurities. For some, the internet is the only place where they can just shut down for a minute, it's their escape, their little fort. But internet is everything but safe. It can be really scary and it's full of mean people who don't hesitate when writing awful comments about someone. I will not give you examples, you know what I'm talking about.
You know, I've suffered from bullying myself, I struggled with self confidence issues and there were times when I just wanted to hide. Even today, I have moments when waking up for another day is a battle. I know where you're at. And I promise you, you are not alone. I also promise it will get better.
I'm on my 20's now but I remember oh so well what it's like to be a teenager. I know life can be hard when you're a teen. Older people look at you like you're stupid and your pears don't really get you and don't really care 'cause their stuck in their own little world. When you're a teen, if you think about it, what you're living is the only thing you know. Before, you were a child and this moment is your only reality. So it's easy to think "this is it, I will never be happier than this". But you know...everyone has a past and a present and you HAVE a future. Things will get better.
You will be more confident, you will have more and more reasons to live, you will meet new people, people that will make you wonder: "where were you all those times I was so alone?". They will be there for you. You will be stronger and wiser.
I know we don't choose our family, we don't choose where we come from but you can start you're own family, eventually, you can choose who you wanna be, what you want to do. You can even move to another country for all you know.
You know? Change you're perspective. Look further. Don't give up and don't be afraid of mean words. I know words hurt but sometimes they're just empty of meaning. Most of the times they can't really harm you and if you learn how to ignore them, people will get tired, they will forget why they were picking on you.
Sometimes it doesn't work that way, sometimes you have to deal with it for a little longer than you think you can handle. But, I promise you this, you can deal with it and it will get better! I know many people who have struggled with bullies, with shitty parents and crappy boyfriends. And you know what? They became stronger and chose to live their own lives, their own way.
Talk to someone, look for support, share your fears with someone you trust. Don't suffer alone. Don't even allow you to think about giving up. That's not an option, ever.
Because life is full of beautiful things. Sometimes we just have to take a minute to remember ourselves why is it that we love to live. We have this animal instinct for survival, it's only natural.
Try this exercise: everyday, at the end of the day, write down the highs and lows of the day, even the smallest things. You will be surprised with how many good things you experience everyday. A smile, a sunrise, a piece of cake...just write everything down. And when you're feeling low, go ahead and read these little lists of yours, think about how you felt doing those things and how there's yet so much to discover, so much in this life that you don't know about...yet.
It will get better. I promise.
P.S.: I'm sorry about some (possible) grammar mistakes, I usually make a previous review of all my entries in Microsoft Office Word 'cause blogger only shows vocabulary errors, but my computer is close to chaos so...today that wasn't possible. Hopefully I didn't screw anything up and I'm worrying for nothing ;)
